Friday, March 26, 2010

Hey, soul sister

Goodmorning to you all!

So my world was completely rocked last night. Kate, a very close friend of mine, introduced me to one of the most beautiful music videos I have ever laid eyes on. I have heard the song many times before, but it didn't really sink in until I watched the video last night. That is why I have to share this with you.

It's called "Hey, soul sister" -- Train

May this song lift your spirits on this gorgeous Friday!!


Thursday, March 25, 2010

My beautiful

Experimenting with my camera. These are some of my favorites. I am lucky I have such a good model :)
Hope you all had a wonderful day!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

If it weren't for bacon, I'd be a vegetarian.

Happy Tuesday everyone!
I hope you got to enjoy the beautiful sunshine more than I did, because I was stuck in my dungeon all day working feverishly on my homework, studying for midterms, finalizing projects, etc. But hey! I am still kickin' & in good spirits.

So! Want some more news, eh? Well, I got some. I think I decided that my tactic is this: bullet most, elaborate on some. That way you will get a taste of each without (hopefully) getting overwhelmed by all the madness. Let's get to it.

1. One of my biggest goals going into this semester (the last half of my JUNIOR year--holy me!) was to really break out of my shell. I know, this seems late. And yes, I have to admitt.. I am a late bloomer. Ever since I went to college, I became a bit introverted in the classroom. I guess I was shy, perhaps lacking confidence, and I just never felt totally comfortable. Well, I wanted to let all of that go. Why waste time being shy? Why waste time not asking questions that are constantly surfacing in your brain?? I put it to rest. This semester has been the best yet. I have met a ton of great people, made strong relationships with my professors, and I emersed myself in knowledge & inquiry.It has paid off big time! In fact, a professor of mine recently recommended me to the recruiter of our MediaLab program at PLU. It's a BIG DEAL. But that's a whole other story... one in which I will explore later.

2. I love BACON. I love it on sandwiches, for breakfast, in my salads, plain.. I could eat it with anything really. Anyway, I just cooked it for the first time all by myself. Sounds silly, right? It totally is! It just intimidated me for some reason. Like I could never live up to the perfect piece of cooked bacon.The first time it turned out burnt... ok.. really burnt. It was charred. But, I ate it and enjoyed it! I've made it a few times since then and each time gets better and better. Practice, baby! I have a mad love for bacon. I don't eat meat much, however, I don't think I could ever eat enough bacon. I always say... if it weren't for bacon, I'd be a vegetarian.

3. I have been watching more "dark" movies. When I say that I mean, war movies, thrillers, etc. This is huge for me! This is coming from someone who can't watch violence or blood, & who jumps at the slightest twitch on the screen. I am facing my fears & broadening my film horizons.

4. I've learned to not hate cleaning my bathroom so much. Also big stuff.

5. (this really should be number one.. but most of you already know this so it got bumped) I got a summer internship at Nordstrom! If any of you truly know me... you know that this is my haven. I live and breath this place. I have always wanted to work there, but never got the opportunity. And now I do! And I am all over it :) I can't wait! If you need a personal shopper-- I am YOUR girl! The woman who interviewed me said that upon completion of the internship, I will move into a management position. How cool would that be?!

6. My baby cousin will soon be (for sure!!) official. It has been a long time coming && believe me, we are all absolutely ecstatic!

And that's all for now! It's back to the grind for me, more studying and writing. Oh joy! Tomorrow holds new stories-- stay tuned!


Song of the day

P.S. You Rock My World -Eels

Is it just me, or does this picture make you smile a lot too?

Life is magical.

Monday, March 22, 2010

The new and improved Me

Hello to all you beautiful people! I've missed you. Lots. I cannot begin to tell you how life has changed for me in the past two months. It has been wild, unexpected, and completely wonderful. Now, how do I go about telling you the updates? Do I write a separate post for each, giving me room to elaborate and differentiate from the other news? Or do I list them in bullets and keep it short and sweet? Decisions. Life is all about decisions, isn't it? I think I should start at the beginning, the tipping point. It will help make things more clear and understandable (at least that's what I am hoping for..). Just prepare yourself, while it may be a sad beginning, I promise you it has one of the happiest of happy endings (or new beginnings, whichever way you see it).

It began on the day before Valentine's day. You see, my heart had been pulling me in so many directions. I felt utterly lost and overwhelmingly confused. Deep down, I did not feel good about the spot I was in. Sam and I had been together for over two years. Don't get me wrong, those were some of the very best years of my life. I learned and loved in a way unlike anything I could have anticipated. We became best friends. It took me a while to notice (or maybe accept is a better word) that we were lacking something. I couldn't describe it, especially to my family, which was really hard for me. Everyone loves Sam. I joked for a long time that I thought they loved him more than me... although I know that wasn't the truth. However, it still bothered me. I felt like I couldn't let my real feelings out because I had other people to protect. I didn't want anyone to get emotionally damaged.

I was tired of masking my apprehensions, it was getting harder and harder to do as the days went on. He began to see it. He saw me start to question things. At first, I didn't want to admitt it. I wanted to work it out and just hope for the best. A few months into this dark phase, I struck reality. I realized that what we were lacking was passion. Sure, I loved him and he loved me. But a relationship isn't all about love, is it? It's about comittment, desire, goes far beyond satisfaction or admiration. I didn't have the urge to make every moment with him, or show the world our undeniably amazing love for one another. As much as I wanted it to be there, it wasn't.

I ended it on the day before Valentine's day. It was the hardest thing I have had to do and yet, it was the best thing I have done. I still appreciate him and think fondly of him. I am glad that although it was a painful time, we are still able to talk to each other or simply smile as we pass by on our way to class. He will always have a piece of me, as silly as that sounds. I am not sure if he fully understands what happened or why it happened, but I believe that one day he will.

On to the brighter side...

This is the happiest I have been in a long time. A LONG TIME. Those of you who really know me know that I've never been an unhappy person... but I have never imagined that it was possible to be this happy. Of course, there are any reasons for this feeling. And yes, I will share them all.. in due time :) I feel free for the first time. I feel invigorated. I feel inspired. I feel Beautiful, Spontaneous, Light, Dreamy. Adventurous.


I urge you to follow your heart. It will never lead you astray. Your heart is who you are, if you don't listen to it..then you are being untrue to yourself. I cannot tell you enough how good it feels to be me again. I am free. I am alive. And I can't get enough.

<3 J

Disclaimer: When I promised, promised, promised I would post "tomorrow" on Friday.. tomorrow meant the next weekday. Although, I'm sure you all caught on to that... ;-) Happy Monday, everyone!

Friday, March 19, 2010

It's been two months..

Hello all!

I have been on a blogging hiatus for two months now! Wow, time has flown by. A lot has happened & I can't wait to share it all. A certain blog follower(who shall remain anonymous) of mine has been persistently reminding me to update my blog, UPDATE MY BLOG, and yet I held off until my exact two month mark. It was hard, let me tell you. I am not here right now to spill it all (seeing as it's a friday night, people!!) but I promise, promise, promise I will post some real good juicy stuff tomorrow. Until then my luvlies!

<3 J